Voices of Truth

I rolled over and looked again, the bring red numbers glared at me, it was 4am. I had only slept 3 hours and now I was wide awake. “What was I doing?” I thought, “I can’t go through with this! I’m not ready!” Yet, I had seen it already; I was on the program I couldn’t bow out now! But even now in the dark I was shaking, I had to be brave but I was scared more than anyone could every know.

Oh, What I would do to have the kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat, I’m in, onto the crashing waves…

When God Lays a Burden on Your Heart…He Will Always Make a Way!

It was career week over 12 years ago, the place; freshman English, the project; our future career and me with a whole lot more guts & faith then I seem to have now. I stood before my class; I was a new convert, been in church maybe 6 months at this time but more likely less time. I can still see my report so vividly in my mind, I remember the desire I felt and the amount of faith that was so overwhelming. My career choice was a bold one, one that I would question over the next several years and maybe even for years to come. It took guts to stand before my peers and share this, it was not the easy path or the path well liked but it was my dream, my burden, my desire. So I began my introduction like this,

“My career choice is to be a missionary to Africa.”

MASH!

Do you remember M.A.S.H!? The game that most girls played when they were a tweens and teenager that game that would decide your future? Oh yes, you would put down names of guys that you were “In Love” with or would one day like to marry. You would pick your future cars, how many kids, your future jobs. Then if you really want you would put your wedding colors, what month you would be married, where you would live, what your husband’s occupancy would be and before you knew it you would have a huge list. Then your friend would make a swirl or lines till you tell them to stop this deciding the number. Slowly you would count off. You either sigh a bit of relief when certain things would be marked off or saddened as your “One True Love” was marked off! When all is said and done your future would be decided for you. With either great delight or fear and prayers it won’t come true.